The Meaninglessness of Motherhood


Motherhood is a great honor and privilege, yet it is also synonymous with servanthood. Every day women are called upon to selflessly meet the needs of their families. Whether they are awake at night nursing a baby, spending their time and money on less-than-grateful teenagers, or preparing meals, moms continuously put others before themselves. - Charles Stanley

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Last Fall I had been struggling with feelings of guilt and frustration over my current situation as a working mother. I would get up early, get myself ready, get Farryn up and ready for daycare, go to work, leave work way too late, come home and make dinner, then do the bedtime routine, and then work on lesson plans until my eyes couldn't stay awake. I was exhausted and miserable - which made my home miserable (when momma ain't happy...). But I had worked SO hard to get my teaching degree and make something of myself in the education world.

One morning on the way to work I heard a voice in my spirit tell me I needed to quit - I cried the entire way to work because I knew it was what I needed to do. After an awkward and hurtful 6 weeks of finishing out my job I journeyed into the unknown of being a stay at home mom (SAHM - mom lingo acronym).  

Let me put this into perspective for you:
-I've had a job since I was 15
-I thrive on being busy
-I love feeling accomplished
... now I'm home the majority of the day, talking in a positive high-pitched voice narrating my every move, and not getting paid.

Can you understand how this would make me feel meaningless and without a purpose to my day? 

Yes, I have been able to experience the joys of seeing my daughter crawl for the first time, put all of the rings on what Phillip and I refer to as the "ring toss" (being a parent gives you a license to play with toys again), and have the best growth rate she has had since birth. But even though I'm never (EVER) alone, motherhood is lonely. 
  
Accepting the title of "Mom" means laying down your life for your child. 

1.) First you lay down any sense of personal space - you are poked and prodded at the doctors offices, your modesty is out the window (way too many people seeing WAY too much of me). By the end of my pregnancy I felt like a science experiment. 

2.) Then once you have the baby - they are dependent on you in every way (especially if  you choose to nurse). Nursing is beautiful, natural, the best thing ever...lies! It is not beautiful - the effects on your body are so very painful. It's far from natural - it has got to be fostered. It is not the best thing ever - it is the hardest job in the world (labor is easier than nursing...I said it). 

My entire life I had wanted to be a teacher and loved teaching - it was my identity. Although I knew having a baby would change me, I was not prepared for it to change my entire life. 

 I have come to the conclusion, though, that motherhood is the highest calling on my life that I could accept. Every day I am fighting a battle against the enemy to raise a warrior. 

 "Don’t you see that children are God’s best gift?
    the fruit of the womb his generous legacy?
Like a warrior’s fistful of arrows
  are the children of a vigorous youth.
Oh, how blessed are you parents,
    with your quivers full of children!
Your enemies don’t stand a chance against you;
    you’ll sweep them right off your doorstep." 
        Psalm 127:4-5

Wiping down Farryn's tray after every meal is not meaningless. Changing her diaper 80 times a day is not meaningless. Getting oatmeal in my hair and diaper cream under my nails is not meaningless. 

I'm investing in a legacy. 

Being a Godly warrior mom is instilling in our children a picture of the love of Christ. The world might look and see another yoga pants wearing, Target loving, coffee dependent mom - but I know that I'm a Sergent in the Lord's army that is training-up the next generation.  


Motherhood is a great honor and privilege, yet it is also synonymous with servanthood. Every day women are called upon to selflessly meet the needs of their families. Whether they are awake at night nursing a baby, spending their time and money on less-than-grateful teenagers, or preparing meals, moms continuously put others before themselves. Charles Stanley
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Motherhood is a great honor and privilege, yet it is also synonymous with servanthood. Every day women are called upon to selflessly meet the needs of their families. Whether they are awake at night nursing a baby, spending their time and money on less-than-grateful teenagers, or preparing meals, moms continuously put others before themselves. Charles Stanley
Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/charles_stanley_451704?src=t_motherhood

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