I feel you, tired Mama.



A couple of years ago I was in a circle of friends with a mom who always seemed angry. When trying to have conversations with her, her words were pleasant but it always seemed as if I was annoying her with my friendship. 

 Fast forward a few years and now I understand why she was like that...she was tired.

 When people tell you about having kids you hear all about the sleepless nights when they are infants and you think "I can deal with that, for a little while!".

  Then you have a child and get through their infant stage, their teething season, their separation anxiety weeks, their realizing they can sit up but can't sit down weeks, their learning how to crawl out of the crib weeks, ....and then one day you realize that it never really ends.

 And you are so so so tired. Not just physically, but emotionally and mentally. 

 Recently my daughter has started to ask "Why?" after EVERY-single-thing I say. By 8:00 AM I am at the breaking point...if I hear "Why?" ONE more time...!

 My husband and I recently had a conversation where he asked me why I seemed on edge most of the time and my response to him was that by the time he gets home from work I've given the best parts of myself, the most patient and gentle parts of myself, to our daughter. 

 I've been seeking the Lord about being more gentle and walking in wisdom so that I can steward my daughter well and be a better wife. I've also been trying to remind my sweet husband that this is a season of a lot of giving of myself and trying to give myself more grace.

 I was reading the other day and this passage is usually in reference to tithing (Paul was urging the church at Corinth about it) but I felt like God spoke to me in a different way:
"A stingy planter gets a stingy crop; a lavish planter gets a lavish crop. I want each of you to take plenty of time to think it over, and make up your own mind what you will give. That will protect you against sob stories and arm-twisting. God loves it when the giver delights in the giving.
 God can pour on the blessings in astonishing ways so that you’re ready for anything and everything, more than just ready to do what needs to be done. "
                                                                      2 Cor. 9: 6-8 MSG

The most precious thing I can give in this season of life is my undivided time and given in a cheerful way, not in a begrudging "out of duty" way. 
I so desperately want to leave a legacy in my children of a mom that invested in them well and with a willing heart. 
I love verse 8 of that passage - it gives me hope that when I give of myself to my family in a loving and cheerful way, God will sustain me to be ready for what needs to be done. 

In the words of Daniel Tiger "ugga-mugga" 💖

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