Braving Mamahood

I once had the incredible opportunity to hear Joyce Meyers speak live and as she was talking about her own struggles in life she told us what God had spoken to her in those moments, "You can be a victor or a victim - but you cannot be both " Woah . Talk about a sucker punch to the gut of your pride and selfishness.  A few years ago I studied the words victor and victim because I was curious what the root of the words were since they were so similar in spelling but very different in meaning.  Vict = comes from the Latin word meaning " conquer ".  Victor = a person that defeats an enemy, or conquers what is overtaking them. Victim = a person that is overcome by what is overtaking them. So you can conquer what is against you or you can let it conquer you - but you cannot stay in the middle.  In the past two months I have had my world completely turned upside down with an unexpected, l engthy  hospital stay where I was poked and prodded and trea...

I am not good at sitting down. I struggle with feeling the need to be productive at all times or else my worth might be undermined. I have a constant need to be three steps ahead and completely prepared for what is next. So here I am, sitting in hospital bed, in a room I’ve been living in for 2 weeks. I have felt the sun once since being here. The most productive thing I have done while living here is getting our taxes done – because I love all things spreadsheets 🙂 When I found out three weeks ago that I would be living in the hospital until our sweet Waverleigh arrived, I was devastated. I didn’t have my lesson plans all prepared, her room wasn’t ready, and I didn’t feel like I had had enough special times with Farryn yet before a new family member entered our home. The first day I checked in I didn’t get to tell Phillip and Farryn goodbye because they rushed them out of the room. Farryn had just tested positive for the flu. My sweet baby and precious husband were...